If you came here for motivation today, I am sorry to disappoint.
It’s after noon…
…and I still have my pajamas on. I just now finished my newest breakfast obsession, two slices of cinnamon toast. I still have a few sips of coffee left in my cup. I’m trying to decide if cleaning my car would count as a workout for today. I’m trying to decide if I even want to clean my car or if I’d rather snuggle up on my hubby’s new recliner and watch a movie. (Currently the latter is winning.)
Aside from creating a new snazzy blog header this morning, it seems pretty obvious that I am extremely lacking in the motivation department.
I’m trying to figure out the reason why I have no motivation today. I mean, it’s a beautiful day…the sun is shining and there’s a cool breeze. It’d be the perfect day for a nice run. I’ve had the biggest urge to do some strength training. Tia would love to go for a walk with me. I could start reading a new book, I could go to the library and find a new book, I could go to the store and pick up a few items that we’ve been needing around the house, I could do some designing, I could finish hanging decorations in my house. So why not just do it?!
I think part of my reason for having no motivation is because I am disappointed that I am not in school right now. I know this may sound crazy to many of you, but I love feeling like I am challenging myself by learning something new.
Even though I’ve dealt with the fact that I am not starting nursing school right now…a big part of me still feels like I should be.
I have such big dreams of being a nurse…and becoming a mother, and maybe someday building a house, and all these things…but for right now I’m just stuck where I am. I can’t move forward until I am in school…and until I finish school. I am twenty-six years old and I was hoping to be a mom by the time I was twenty-five. I know I’m still young and that I have plenty of time, but it is something that Matt and I have always known we wanted. It is harder than ever now because I can see how much Matt wants to start a family. He has always been the more apprehensive one…the one with the “five-year plan” and the one who needs all his ducks in a row. He is waiting on me now. Our future little curly-haired baby is waiting on me.
But I know that God has a reason for everything, and I really am trying my hardest to be patient. I know that our future will be beyond wonderful…that’s just why I want to be there already.
I’ve always had the most difficult time dealing with my not-so-happy feelings…just trying to cover them up with something more cheerful. I do have many positive things going on in my life…like my handsome and caring husband…but it does feel nice to get that off my chest. I do want this to be a motivational blog, but I think it can only be genuine if I am honest with my own feelings. It’s normal to feel disappointment sometimes. It’s okay to feel disappointment. Yes, Angela, it’s okay.
I think another part of my problem is a lack of a routine. And luckily, this is something that I can change right now! So what’s my plan? Wake up at a decent time and finish my workout (if I have one planned for the day). If I don’t have a workout planned or don’t feel like working out then I will take my pretty baby Tia for a walk. After working out then I will set aside time to blog and read blogs. This always makes for a nice, positive start to any day. After blogging I will do whatever needs to be done for the rest of the day.
I think a new planner is in order and would be a great way to turn this lack of motivation problem upside-down! Maybe I will go shopping today after all!
I need your help! How do you turn your lack of motivation upside-down?